In simply so much as my own desperation,
I look for an insight; I look for my inspiration,
In everyday I find to wrap up the unwound truth about me,
The “me” I seem to be losing to everyday, the one that isn’t free
In unanswered complaints and unanswered mails lies my hidden heart,
In places I don’t look for anymore, places I could never start
I linger in my belief, resting in my choices and my indignation,
I have become but everything, far beyond my imagination.
With hope I stare on at your face, your heart,
I can’t seem to find what I was looking for & yet feel close even if we are apart
I take the first step everyday to be indifferent, one day at a time,
And yet it feels so unfair, as I convince myself this decision isn’t mine
Tomorrow you might find a different day, one that doesn’t bother you any more,
For some reason I will find a different day too, just that I know I will be long gone
I will question my beliefs, every decision I took when you were around,
Because I know it in my head, I can still find in my heart, your undying sound
In the spaces between the lines, the words I write today,
I wish they are looked, and searched for meaning in at least some way.
Tonight you decide to show me how far I am to you, & yet so close you are to mine,
The feeling that won’t go away, as I keep wishing till the end of time
In desperate hopes and dreams I try for a different start,
Only to find my past holds me down, with things I couldn’t understand
The decision was never mine to take, never yours to take,
As I find my desperation, my inspiration and the reason I don’t believe in fate.
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